Lucky Charm

I played roulette with u
I bet it all
Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe I'm not
But I bet on u
You my number 9
A dime minus one but a dime
Nonetheless
I had a feeling
And I had to take a risk
Call me reckless
Call me crazy
But maybe I'm not

As deep as I am dense.

Back to the Beginning

God,

I wish I never met you. I wish I was able to meet you all over, again.

 Can we go back to the beginning?

I wish I knew you as a stranger. Maybe I bumped into you at the bus stop or standing on line at the grocery knowing nothing of one another, no misconceived notions, ideas. I wish I met you, knowing nothing. No mold, no box to try to squeeze you in.

Looking into the eyes of a stranger. What would your eyes look like? 

What would I see in your gaze with you looking back at me.

What if I just knew you one to one, for myself.

Because I have a feeling that there is so much more to you.

Starting with a conversation, a look in the eye. 

An introduction sealed with a handshake.

 Followed by more conversation. Then we exchange numbers. 

Later, we pick up the phone, make a date. 

And learn each other.

What if I had actually invited you in? 

 Instead of culture's distortion and exploitation of a billboard Jesus?

 Instead of well-meaning others clamping you onto me. 

Instead of church tying a noose of doctrine around my neck?

What if I loved you for myself? 

Learned you for myself? Argued with you even? 

Adored and desired you for myself. What if?

Can we go back to the beginning-

Have I unlearnt all I needed to unlearn.

Let me learn you all over again.

I only know your masks

Let me see your face.

I only know the myths and fables of you

Let me hear your voice.

I only know buildings of you,

Let me know the architecture, let me kiss the marble floors

within your heart of your hearts.

God, Let me love you.

Possessing Myself

Possessing myself
Grounding my feet into the earth

Roots grow deep, anchoring  me
Harnessing the whirlwind that I am
for a surge of electricity that earth has never felt
Lassoing my luminescence, unbridled
to now coherently emit a light
with power enough to 
slice through glass

 I have touched the star of my pinnacle 
 I have eaten the crumbs off the last floor of my hell
 
Shadow and soul,
now wedded- a holy matrimony
Possessing myself

Soul of a Gypsy

Why must I buy a ticket and get on a plane

when I travel everyday a thousand times a moment

I travel states, levels, dimensions, places a plane can't take you

 

Each moment is a sunrise unseen

Every interaction with a stranger, a new world

Every conversation, a new soil my feet have kissed

Each emotion a portal into another galaxy, leading into another and another

Every love its own language, speaking many tongues

 

And when I take this pen to paper

I dive deep,  traversing many oceans,

sometimes with tired arms and heavy lungs

But still  I dive deep hunting the depths of mother earth's soul

for treasures in the darkness

 

And when I return to the surface, a different face everytime.

 

The question is not if I will go,

but how far and how deep

Lines of longitude and latitudes criss-cross and swirl 

wrapping their coordinates around my childlike hands

It is who I am, it is what I am-

an atlas of love.

 

My soul is a caravan; my feet, my home

And

 My heart, my only compass

Love Me Not & Forget Me Now

I don't even think

I could

if I tried

to  bottle all the love

I've been lavished with

in  my short life.

If I did

I would drown

in a thousand hungry oceans.

So please,

don't do me any favors

I'll find somebody else to Love me.

 

 

Sun, where can I hide from you.

You stared me down today and had no mercy

I cringed and wished to hide myself within myself

wished to bury myself in a tomb of my own hair

You stared me down and in one look you told me

everything about myself

The perfect crystal ball you showed me with clarity

diamond sharp And I cringed and cried inside my

head a hammer nailing all the words I before could not

piercing this pink, finalizing the photo, a photo finish.

A new picture developed.